tears & stuffed

L word annoying
facebook kill me
taxi cab stop talking smells and slower than the bus
nails are long and shiny still,
leftover pineapple
Vitamin water

ALL I want is my pink bed to swallow me, digest me
I turn into tiny pink pillow hearts
collected
put in vending machines
picked up by claws
hugged by children
given to lovers in february

cried into

all my cotton is soaked with sea salt tears
washed up on the shore
a dog toy
pink fades to brownpeach
I am swallowed by the ocean
I am a sea sponge

Tiny sea bugs live inside me
from inside they see everything, the bubbles, deep sea parties and the fish drama
they fight and cry and swim away angrily
they go home to their cold coal reef and float about all night wondering

when you cry underwater the rays and crabs don't notice
you can cry so much
the plankton hear you
they float by and listen

It hurts like a handstand in the waves, crashing into your upside down body
all the wind knocked out of you
salty body sideways, water in your nose and stinging eyes
you lie there, foam crackling along the human shape
you sink into the sand
you are digested by zillions of sandcrabs
pink acrylic nails surface along the hard sand eventually.

Ten shiny pebbles shaped like fingernails, with faded glitter
The pink is very bright,
the salt preserves the pink.

zillions of tears crash horizontal

girls come here and cry all the time

sometimes they take little pink pebbles into their hands, squeeze them and wish for help
zillions of wishes happen like this

their necks are wet with pink tears
their pebble inside the tight hand is throbbing

(cat calls and running dogs and screaming children all happen outside the human shape)

she imagines a claw lifting her out of the sandbox machine
dropping her into a chute
into the paws of a white stuffed kitten with a pink bow and blue eyes.
Forever she falls asleep to dry cotton spooning and cartoon purring.