thaw

light the candles
focus on one thing

a light moving on the dresser.

washed hands
get into the bed again.

the fingernail polish is shiny still, glittering.
the birds are chittering in the other room, all day long they act happy.
large sweaters hold you, under the covers you hold three white
 stuffed kittens
a bed full of stuffed critters and a cage of birds
like bumper bowling, keeping me out of the gutter balls
the sucking down

the all aloneness of everyday

one long braid and dark eyes closed
i imagine my skin soil breathing
i become seeds and grow and feel air and water and am a season
outside a human body all day long is right now